To preface this conversation, you need to understand I am a 68 year-old make who plays basketball or walks six days a week. Yes, I have many health problems, but I can still run up and down the court.
Last night, my neighbor needed an ambulance. As I was talking to the dispatcher, I could not remember the correct address. I could get part of it, but not all of it.
If my brain had been engaged, I could have given the dispatcher MY address, and the paramedics would have landed within 15 feet of the ailing neighbor.
I do that during times of extreme stress – check out mentally. If you are talking to me, and the conversation goes somewhere my brain doesn’t want to go, I start to stutter. Then, I become tongue-tied. The harder I try to get words out, the more my brain shuts down. I literally can not think.
A few years ago, a former friend told me the phrase “fight or flight.” My reaction under stress is to freeze. My brain and body shut down. I can’t move or talk. So I guess I fall under the category “flight.” I don’t PHYSICALLY run away, but my brain and my body “fly” away. I am useless.
One painful example of this is when our daughter broke her ankle falling off her bike (or was it her leg?). I was a statue, and my wife had to calmly take over.
It is embarrassing as heck to admit all this.
I would rather fight.
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